had a terrible dream last nite.. a nightmare.. havnt had a nightmare for quite long.. all my dreams are always very random, sometimes funny.. but this one is scary.. wah.. it will never happen la.. but e tot of it just scares me.. feel so great to be awake.. next time if i hav nightmares, will force myself to wake up man..

membership, friendship, partnership, kinship.. which stage am i in now?? we human will scan around to see which frens we should make.. is a human thing ba.. think abt it, i am also.. yes, Jesus doesnt do tat.. everyone is his fren.. we should be like him too.. accept all pple around us.. n sometimes we will only open up if e other party open up 1st.. is like 2 parties waiting for each other to initiate.. can it be said as 'conditioned love'? 'i only love you if u love me'.. well well, Jesus is not like tat.. His love is unconditional.. if His love is conditioned, ha, surely not all of us are loved by Him.. ha.. friendship.. is wonderful to see how friendship grows.. from a stage where we do not know each other to a stage where we know every details of each other.. to me, quality of time spending with each other is a factor.. openness is another one.. well, i guess i need to initiate more.. cos many a times i waiting for pple to initiate.. n of course, when there is initiation, there must be response.. n it shouldnt end just like tat..

got 'hurt' by 2 frens in one day.. ha.. i am not offended la.. ha.. they dun mean it.. they said tat cos they know i wont mind... ha can say tat they know me well.. but is quite hurting when u think of it.. ha.. i can accept criticism, n have learnt to accept reality too..

october n nov are coming.. 4 reports, 2 tests, 2-3 presentations, 4 exams to go.. ha an interesting schoollife..