i was cycling, on the journey to somewhere.. until i stopped near e steep slope.. there was no way i could cycle up.. plus i was carrying so many barang barang.. how? i got down my bicycle n tried to push it up the slope.. it was dauting.. every step of gg up just test my endurance.. Jesus came to me.. n offered me His help.. i was so glad.. but he said 'leave behind the things u are carrying now.. leave behind them..' yes there are my dearly things i hold on tight to.. n they are e ones that sometimes distract me from being close to Him.. 'Do not love the world or anything in e world.. for anything in e world comes not from the Father, but from the world.(1 john 2: 15-16)' yes i am holding tight to the worldly things, my desires that only benefit me, n i am so into the world lifestyle.. i realised tat it is hard, really hard to live without Him.. nothing in this world can fill my broken heart.. nothing in this world can make me so joyful.. life is purposeless without Him.. i threw away the barang barang.. i was reluntant, but i know this feeling will go away fast.. i know this is e correct choice.. i sat at the back of the bicycle, and Jesus cycled me up.. the journey up was tough.. i may fall anytime.. 'The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms. (deu 33:27a)' yes i may fall.. but i am not afraid of it.. He is my refuge, my spiritual parachute.. when i am falling, He will grab hold on me, with His everlasting arms..

this above came to me when i was worshipping God in prayer meeting.. offer my life to Him, desire to be like Him..


i was so disgusted by what a daughter did to her mother.. the daughter is in her 40s? mother is very old.. was in e airport just now and me saw them.. i really dunno wat's up wif the daughter.. really.. she was forcing her mother to do something.. like forcing her to give her numbers while she herself was chanting out something.. weird! scary also! i couldnt really figure out their conversation cos they conversed in hokkien.. obviously the daughter likes to gamble or she is superstitious.. her mother was very tired n sleepy liao n she still forcing her..by the way it was abt 2 am den.. she even threw her tempers on her for a few times.. wat's up wif her!! i only can pray tat this will not happen again...

on the way back home, came across jay chou's 'listen to your mother'.. ya must listen to your mother, obey her, be nice to her.. she is not your tool to make money, she is your mum.. yes i am furious.. wanted to confront the daughter, but just din hav e courage.. haiz..

alright let's change topic... yay!! i am gg to watch phantom of the opera with marble n hopefully chiang!! not dvd ah, is e real life musical we gg to watch.. is not the type of musical tat i fancy abt, it is the fact tat i am gg to watch a live musical that excites me!! yay!! but hor is at march 2007.. ha.. still hav to wait so long.. ya but we need to book tix fast ba.. hey angel of music, u will be there singing the song ah? haha.. by the way, own up ah.. i know who u are!! haha...

2 Chronicles 7:15-16
Now my eyes will be open and my ears attentive to the prayers offered in this place. I have chosen and consecrated this temple so that my Name may be there forever. My eyes and my heart will always be there.

i tot i understand you, but i doubt so now.. only He can fill the emptiness in your heart..