i din realise is eh friday now.. a busy week, rushing assignment and presentation.. missed online lectures and dun feel like listening to them AT ALL.. a test coming e following wk.. they said study also no use.. no better how hard u study, u will fail.. well, think i hav to study to fail well.. 10 MCQs.. n i guess it has a high percentage? crap.. not a gd feeling at all..

watched Lorenzo's oil.. i tot is a very good movie.. e first movie in lecture where everyone really paid full attention throughout the whole movie and lecturer's teachings (after the movie).. and it is the first lecture note for this module that i really study the biology theory behind it.. it is a true story, talking about a family whose son, lorenzo, has a genatic disorder, Adrenoleukodystrophy (ALD). it has no cure or treatment at that time.. n it shows his parents' determination in finding the cure for the disease, while seeing their son deteriorating each day.. they din find a perfect cure, but did find a treatment(an oil) to halt the progression.. can u imagine, the parents finding the cure, without the knowledge of chemistry n biology at first.. they read really a lot.. Lorenzo will not live long, without a treatment for the disorder. however, with the treatment, he still lives today.. he cannot speak, and move like normal pple.. but he can communicate through a modified sign language..

well.. i wonder when pple are sad or troubled, will they show it in front of people? we are taught that we should be real to yourself and everyone.. like show your true feelings.. but sometimes people prefer to look happy, like still leading a normal life.. bcos they want to live happily, trying to forget the sadness, although they know they cant.. n they do not wan pple to see their sadness.. so be real or be strong? hmm, to put in simple logic, you need to be happy to not to feel sad.. n you can be real n strong too.. like you show your saddness, people know how you feel.. n you knoe this will be temporary.. but sometimes it will spoilt your day when you see down faces everywhere? but maybe is really better than putting a mask on your face.. hmm dunno la.. for me sad things are of different degrees.. we dun need to tell pple we are sad all the time.. sometimes we can handle them ourselves..

世界那么大．．n i really wan to explore.. but where is e time n money??? now i think of it, even gg to places like gentings is better than staying here.. at least i am exploring somewhere.. so gentings is not that bad after all.. ha.. but go there once is enuff la..

OTC has been good so far.. before OTC, i dun like to read old testament at all.. is kind of boring to me.. but it has been great reading them now.. is real interesting.. learning so many things about God.. our understanding of God is never enuff.. n every reading just increase our knowledge of Him..

end now.. dont u all feel like some nights it is so unbearable? you hav things to do, but you cant put yourself in doing it.. you cannot sleep cos you havnt done your things.. i am feeling tat now..